Slow cookin

I bought a slow cooker to try and prepare meals more often since I am exhausted by the time I get home from work. I have used it 3 times in 1 month. I think it is time to use it again! I just am not so inspired and don't know what to try and make. I see recipes online and I think they look delicious. I bookmark them and forget about them. Today I think I am determined to make something in it because it is hot and I don't want to spend hours cooking and making the house hot especially since I spent all yesterday barbecuing and playing hostess. But what to make? I have no idea. I could search through my bookmarks... but I want something to come to me. Talk about laziness huh? I also have to clean my bedroom and wash clothes. Ugh. Where are the people who will invent a robot that will pick up and fold clothes? C'mon we have a roomba (or whatever its called) invented so far!

Children

Yesterday was my son's birthday. Naturally my siblings slept over and now after helping me clean my house they have started to play guitar hero. I hear my son say "No no we should do rock & roll all night". I love guitar hero because it has kid friendly music and they actually enjoy playing and singing along. I hate to hear my sister sing "I
 kissed a girl and I liked it!" I much rather hear "I... wanna rock & roll all night... and party everyday". I don't even turn the radio on in my car when they are in it because its disturbing to hear them singing along to the most lewd songs with the catchiest beats.

I can't imagine what music will be like when these 10 & 11yr olds are teenagers. I know I will try my hardest to mix it up for them and expose them to all sorts of music... new and old.

Being a Mom

I've helped raise kids all my life. To be more accurate, I raised 4 of 9 of my siblings for the first portion of their lives. Occasionally they will tell me they remember when I used to do this or that to or for them. My mom was a baby making machine and was always pregnant it seems. I am 7 years older than the next in line and can remember from a very young age hearing my mom yell for Tums and milk. There is no more than a 2 year gap between the children. Their current ages are 14, 13, 11, 10, 8, 7, 5, 4, 2. By the time I was in high school I was getting them up and ready in the mornings, taking them to school, picking them up, helping with homework, cooking dinner, baths, and bedtimes. I felt like a mom. I've had stress far too long. Now I know how to de-stress play with my children.

I met my Hus  and somewhere along the line we moved in together. Shortly after we had his son full-time. I fell in love with him and cared for him like if he was mine. I was there for a lot of important moments. His first tooth falling out, kindergarten, 1st grade, and now second grade. We had a baby together and my sons get along so well. I love being a mom. There cant be a greater joy. Just seeing them smile or laugh tickles me. This is completely different then raising my siblings. This love is different. It touches a part of my soul that nothing else ever has. If my sons are sad I feel it. My youngest son is turning one soon and my oldest is now 7 I cant believe it.

In the blink of an eye they grew. In the blink of an eye they will be adults. I have to watch out and cherish every moment.

Grinds my gears edition

You know what really grinds my gears?
People who don't bring their shopping carts back to its bay. Especially when its very close to their cars. Lazy fucking bitches. Twice in the past 2 days I've seen a phantom shopping cart rolling at a high speed towards a car. Both times the offenders car was no more than 2 cars from the shopping cart bay. What the fuck. Is it really that hard to roll the cart to its proper place?! I wonder if this person would get mad if their own car was smashed into by a shopping cart.
Both times I pulled my cart and the flying cart back to the bay.

Cooking Aspirations

I'd love to be a great cook. I don't want to go to cooking school. I just want to be able to look in my cabinets and spice rack and say hmm what can I make with this and whip up something AMAZING. If I could I would spend hundreds... Maybe thousands on kitchen equipment I'd probably never use.

I mentioned to the hus that I want to be a great cook. He said "is your heart really in it". He knows. He knows when I really felt like cooking or baking because my food will come out superb. He knows when I just cook because I had to. My food will come out just ok. I want to be able to cook perfectly every time. I want to be able to improvise. I don't know what most of the spices taste like or will do to my dishes.

I don't know where to start. Maybe I will buy a book. I have a ton of recipes I want to try. I haven't had most vegetable and have no idea how to prepare them. I just recently tasted kale, spinach, and zucchini. They were not bad. My goal is to be a great cook. I don't know by when I'll be able to do this but I want to try. I can cook decently. I have a set amount of recipes that I have perfected but I want to expand my horizons.

Soon grasshopper. Soon.

Shopping...

I have this crazy desire to shop. I never desire shopping because nothing ever fits right and I spend all day shopping and only buy 3 things that I feel so so about. Ever since I started working where I work I have a desire to be beautiful- on the outside. I have nice-ish clothes. I dress for comfort more than anything.
I am working hard not so hard on loosing my tummy and thinning out my arms. So I shouldn't shop yet I should wait. But my feet won't lose weight right?? So I can still shoe shop. But if I shoe shop ill want to wear them but I can't if I have nothing to wear with them. See my dilemma?! Lol oh boy I gotta kick start this toning up program. I haven't been on my Wii in like a week.

Sprite

My son wants me to always get him sprite zero because it always gives u an insistant reward. I love how kids misread things and make big funnies without knowing they are.